Axel de Fersen on the demise of Antoinette

So much for contemporary history - I decided to go some centuries back this time. In 1990, I had read the synopsis of a book titled "Louis and Antoinette" by Vincent Cronin. This book, while it chronicled the lives of Marie Antoinette and Louis XVI on the backdrop of the French revolution, it also talked about a character in the king's court, Axel de Fersen, who was in love with the queen but could do little when the juggernaut took over and watched helplessly while the queen was guillotined.
I had written this poem on reading the synopsis. Hope you like it:

October 16, 1793
When a page softly broke the news,
His face fell, his eyes were aghast:
Lips stuttered, and cheeks changed their hues
And he wept, chewing on the past,
"I shudder to think how she's gone,
Parted by the ominous blade,
Leaving behind me to atone
Memories that never fade ...

Memories haunt this guilty mind:
I loved neither king nor his throne
But his lady, she drove me blind
And left this weak heart to atone
For all those sweet, fleeting moments
'Oh God! Why did she have to go?
Make me bear such fiery torrents-
I cannot face their whipping flow.'

'Forgive me, o departed prince
For worshipping your wife divine,
The loveliest of all the queens
That enraptured this heart of mine'
But alas! I cannot find her
For she left me to start anew ..."

And his heart was torn asunder
And he too, couldn't start anew.